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53 Days

18 August 2009

53 Days
cricket cricket.
53 Days.
Two months from a week ago.
Eight weeks. (5 weeks until my 20-miler.)
53 Days.
(Remember when it was 153? oh the days of innocence…)

Now I am a person who gets up at 5:30 to go running because i want to.

dot. dot. dot.

ugh. I’m out of practice (in both running and writing)
but i don’t have to tell you that…

i sometimes fear, when i haven’t run for a while, that i won’t remember how to. Not literally, of course, but there’s this feeling when i first set out to walk, where i have to talk myself into getting started.
because, think about it, how do you really run? if you had to describe, in painstaking detail, the physical act of running, could you do it?
(I recall a writing class where we were asked to describe a blade of grass to someone who’d never seen grass before. Well, it’s green. it grows from the ground. cows eat it. Yes, but what IS grass?)
pew. existentialism. what IS running. who AM I.
It’s just running. You don’t think about it. You just do it.

With writing it’s the same thing. I stare at the blinking cursor. i approach the keys like a caveman handling a foreign object.
What. am i. supposed. to do. with. this.
But then i get started. and little by little it starts to happen.
(Anne Lamott described the process as a benevolent Dr. Seuss character living in a dark cave below your surface, passing messages to you and keeping you going. It’s kind of like that.)

So here we are. 53 days. And a renewed desire to hop back on the wagon…in hopes that i won’t need a wagon to haul my ass 26.2 miles.
in 53 days.

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One Comment leave one →
  1. Amanda permalink
    21 August 2009 9:39 am

    What’s this 20 mile run? I don’t think you’ve told me about that one.

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